I had went through some emotional speedbumps upon getting out of the hospital. As my Dengue receded, I had enjoyed a period of spiritual "lightness" as I had went through the ordeal without having wished, hoped, or prayed. After this high, I came across another hindrance to spiritual evolution -- other people.

This continued on right through when we got regular electricity back. Somehow distracted by the notion of other people's contribution to the loss of my sanity, I became unproductive once again. Even when I had went over to study the arts, there are still people who act like how my peers from Industrial Engineering had acted -- with envy and disdain.

I am not one capable of ignoring such things for as most of you would not really believe, I am a very emotional person. While I am uncanny in hiding my initial feelings, I am one to voice them out directly once it has affected me too much. I never like hiding either my joy or pain for it is dishonesty, showing that I am not that big of a fan of Sun Tzu in the social scope. To show yourself in your true essence, you are becoming more in tune with humanity. As I had gained more disdain from some, I have also gained friendship from those whose ways are much more sensible than those of the ordinary brand.

If this is what it really takes for me to start writing with a new vision and zeal, then so be it. This is merely another part of my development, and I seek to achieve a higher level of literary consciousness. My composition may be viscous and my vocabulary may be limited, but my passion is certainly not lacking. I shall write while treading through the mud.

I am five chapters into my sci-fi project now. Stir me up some more.

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"By putting the art pedal to the metal, we really maximize our humanness..."
- Terrence McKenna

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Twenty years ago, the Berlin Wall fell.
Twenty years later, the Israeli West Bank Wall is being built.